There was a night I wasn’t supposed to survive.

Doctors weren’t sure I would.

Machines were beeping.
My body was shutting down.

And the man I loved?

Gone.

Just like that.

No goodbye.
No apology.
No explanation.

Sometimes people ask me why I’m writing this book.

Because the truth is…

When God lets you live through something that should have killed you, you don’t stay quiet about it.

You tell the story.

“When Idols Fall” reflects a universal human experience — the collapse of something we’ve placed ultimate value in. For me, that idol was a relationship and the identity I built around it. When it fell, I lost everything externally — but it forced an internal reckoning. The book explores what happens when the thing you worship fails you — and how you rebuild after that collapse.

My memoir explores what happens when a high-functioning, faith-driven woman slowly loses herself inside a trauma bond disguised as love. On the outside, I was successful — sober, rebuilding my life, working in corporate America. But behind closed doors, I was unraveling inside an emotionally and physical abusive relationship that culminated in an ICU hospitalization after an overdose.

The book follows my descent into spiritual confusion, codependency, and addiction — and then my rebuilding through rehab, faith, work, and radical self-accountability. It’s about trauma bonds, spiritual identity, pride before the fall, and ultimately resurrection.

It will resonate with women who’ve experienced emotional abuse, spiritual influence, addiction recovery, or late-in-life reinvention. It’s raw, introspective, and spiritually layered.